I believe that God speaks to different channels at times, often times for me through music. Earlier this year I went way overboard about a problem that ended up being alright. The next day, Devin Townsend released a song called “Call of the Void” with the lyrics “Cause when you feel the world's insane reaction To follow your heart, the worst reaction is to Freak out So don't you Freak out”, which felt like a reaffirmation of how I should have handled things.
I am about to begin an awesome Master’s program in Songwriting and Music Production. It seems perfect for me and what I’ve always wanted to do, but I’m nervous. It will be fun and interesting, and I’ll be able to use a lot of it as a teacher, but career-wise what kind of a move am I making? It’s not a doctorate or administrator license, so what is the next step? If we’re heading into a recession, maybe I should learn welding or carpentry instead.
Then I stumbled once again upon Moodring, like pretty hard. I remember thinking they were ok when I first heard of them, but this time I was really into it. The song “Disintegrate” has a really awesome ambient part at the end that spends time building on the line “Someday you’ll wish you had.”
I am sure other opportunities will come along from this new training, or something else may take place because of it. I have no idea, but I’m sure I’ll always wonder if I don’t do it. I have also started to hear “Someday you’ll wish you had” in other areas of my life, mainly hanging out with my kids after an exhausting day when all I want to do is veg out. Or reaching out to a friend, or trying to get more sleep.
I still find myself second-guessing and worrying about what the best choice is. But time waits for no one. As with so many other things in life that happen we have made space and adapted to whatever situation takes place. Plus, what advice would I give to one of my kids in a similar situation? What am I modeling for them? I would hope “carpe diem.” So, that’s what I need to do. I’m diving in. I’ve paid the deposit and we’re off on this crazy ride!